Life’s journey

 Life’s journey

Looking back over life I only remember the big thing I don’t remember the details and when I look back on life goes on such a very long time I remember as a big thing the wrench I’m going without music when I went away to university to study because I could in no way afford anything to play music on or any music to play and I think now 30 years later I think it that wrench in a big thing a trust it must’ve hurt.

Big things 

I guess the most obvious big thing is the first thing that you were born and I don’t remember that

 my earliest memory is the hospital I was in hospital having an operation and I was two or three years old I have the original letter that the hospital sent to my mum with the appointment so I know that I was 2 3/4 it was the 1970s would in fact be 1975 and so I was wearing my brown and orange jumper as the 70s as it is befitting of the 70s 

it was a big ward with lots of other people on it and my mother un dressed me and I hateD being undressed in front of all those other people I guess I didn’t have curtains in hospital wards in those days and I remember the anaesthetist and surgeon and I remember being offered either the big black blue balloon or the needle and I was scared of the needle but equally  afraid to request the big black balloon as I knew it was important not to be greedy.

 and if I had it in me now I would weep for a child that thought it was greedy to choose the balloon over the needle 

why would a child is not even three have been taught greedy I believe children should be spoilt and nurtured and loved I would like my child to have an adult hood filters on his childhood rather than be spent making up for it. I would like my child to have an adult heard films on his childhood rather than be spent making up for it.